Yesterday was an emotional one. I can't believe I'm writing about it, but I feel that it would help. I woke up yesterday and realized that my friends are all seniors. Why is this a problem? They are graduating. They're done with school. I have one or two friends my age, but if I belonged to any social group, it would be my seniors. I didn't realize how much it would hurt until I reached the lunchroom and realized that I had-literally-no one to sit with. Like it was back to square one. So I ate outside and read Jane Eyre. That is the WRONG book to read when you're sad! I'm ashamed to say that I did cry.
Their prom comes soon, and I'll be there to take pictures, assure them of their beauty, give their dates a talk...then what? And once they graduate, they'll leave for college. The idea never sounded so terrible. They assure me we'll stay close, but how close can you be when they're hundreds of miles away and preoccupied with their education?
I'm moping, I know. And being antisocial. But that's how I am. You might as well tell a fish to stop swimming and start jogging.
But on to more important things. 'Let other pens dwell on guilt and misery', to use Jane Austen's words. I took a run yesterday to calm myself, and took it upon myself to get lost. I succeeded swimmingly (ha ha), and found myself on a wood chip path in the woods I live nearbye. It was absolutely beautiful. If anyone has lost themself in a small wood where the leaves on the trees reflect the sunlight and the ground soaks shade, they know that the sound of your breath and your feet pounding the ground is one of the most comforting sounds imaginable. I had a terrible cramp in my neck (don't ask me how, but I always get cramps in my neck when I run) and my foot started tensing up, but I couldn't stop. Just to hear the sound of my breathing was wonderful. Relief in moderate pain is, for want of a better word, good.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
'The Big Bang Theory' Quotes
I regularly watch a fantastic show called, "The Big Bang Theory" (there are some clips at the bottom of the page) and I wish to share some of the brilliance.
You have about as much chance of going out with Penny as the Hubble Telescope has of finding that at the center of each black hole there's a little man with a flashlight trying to find the circuit breaker.
-Sheldon
I just know that moving all day can be stressful and I just thought that good neighbors and some Indian food might be just what you need... plus, curry is a natural laxative and I don't need to tell you that a clean colon is one less thing to worry about.
-Leonard
Oh, well, this would be one of those circumstances that people unfamiliar with the law of large numbers would call a coincidence.
-Sheldon
[discussing Sheldon's work] At least I didn't have to invent 26 dimensions to get the math to work.
-Leonard
I didn't invent them. They're there.
-Sheldon
Yeah? In what universe?
-Leonard
In all of them, that's the point!
-Sheldon
Oh, Raj was just comparing Sheldon to a hygiene product used by women who are not feeling fresh on a summer's eve.
-Howard
And the bag it came in.
-Penny
This car weighs, let's say, 4,000 pounds. Now add 140 for me, 120 for you...
-Sheldon
120?!?
-Penny
Oh, I'm sorry. Did I insult you? Is your body mass somehow tied into your self worth?
-Sheldon
You know what's interesting about caves, Leonard?
-Sheldon
What?
-Leonard
Nothing.
-Sheldon
Now, you listen here. I have being telling you since you were four years old, it's okay to be smarter than everybody but you can't go around pointing it out.
-Mary
Why not?
-Sheldon
Because people don't like it. You don't remember all the ass kickings you got from the neighbor kids. Now lets get cracking. Shower, shirt, shoes and let's shove off.(Mary leaves the room)
-Mary
There wouldn't have been any ass kickings if that stupid death ray had worked.
-Sheldon
This is the best cobbler ever!
-Penny
You know what the secret ingredient is?
-Mrs. Cooper
Love?
-Penny
Lard.
-Mrs. Cooper
Leonard: We need to widen our circle.
Sheldon: I have a very wide circle. I have 212 friends on myspace.
Leonard: Yes, and you’ve never met one of them.
Sheldon: That’s the beauty of it.
Penny: I’m a Sagittarius, which probably tells you way more than you need to know.
Sheldon: Yes, it tells us that you participate in the mass cultural delusion that the sun’s apparent position relative to arbitrarily defined constellations at the time of your birth somehow affects your personality.
Penny: (puzzled) Participate in the what?
I’ve spent the past three-and-a-half years staring at greaseboards full of equations; before that, I spent four years working on my thesis; before that, I was in college; and before that, I was in the fifth grade.
-Sheldon
Sheldon: Leonard! Leonard!
Leonard: What, what’s the matter?
Sheldon: My equations! Someone’s tampered with my equations!
Leonard: Are you sure?
Sheldon: Of course I’m sure. Look at the beta function of quantum chromodynamics–the sign’s been changed!
Leonard: Yeah…but doesn’t that fix the problem you’ve been having?
Sheldon: Are you insane? Are you out of your mind? Are you–hey, look, that fixes the problem I’ve been having!
(Penny asking if she can spend the night on Sheldon and Leonard's couch)
Leonard: Are you suggesting that if we let Penny stay, we might succumb to cannibalism?Sheldon: No one ever thinks it’ll happen until it does.
Leonard: Penny, if you promise not to chew the flesh off our bones while we sleep, you can stay.
Penny: What?
Leonard: What are you doing?
Sheldon: Every Saturday since we’ve lived in this apartment, I have awakened at 6:15, poured myself a bowl of cereal, added a quarter-cup of 2% milk, sat on this end of this couch, turned on BBC America, and watched Doctor Who.
Leonard: Penny’s still sleeping.
Sheldon: Every Saturday since we’ve lived in this apartment…
Leonard: You have a TV in your room, why don’t you just have breakfast in bed?
Sheldon: Because I am neither an invalid nor a woman celebrating Mother’s Day.
(Leonard as to he and Penny's future)
Leonard: Our kids will be smart and beautiful.
Sheldon: Not to mention imaginary
(later)
Leonard: I'm a male, and she's a female.
Sheldon: But not of the same species.
How can she take your order when you're too neurotic to talk to her?
-Howard
That boy has been trouble since the day he fell out of me at K-Mart.
-Sheldon's mother
Leonard: A Homo habilis discovering his opposable thumbs says what ...
Kurt: What?
Leonard & Sheldon laugh
Now I fixed chicken. I hope that's not one of those animals you people think is magic.
-Sheldon's mother to Raj
Penny: Hey, if you guys need a fourth, I'll play.
Leonard: Great idea!
Sheldon: Uh, no. The wheel was a great idea. Relativity was a great idea. This is a notion, and a rather sucky one at that.
Penny: Why?!
Sheldon: Why? Oho, Penny, Penny, Penny.
Penny: Oho, what, what, what?
Sheldon: (as Penny picks up the controller) This is a complex battle simulation with a steep learning curve. There are a myriad of weapons, vehicles, and strategies to master, and not to mention an extremely intricate back story.
Penny: (explosion from the TV) Oh, cool! Whose head did I just blow off?
Sheldon: Mine.
I don't know how, but she is cheating! Nobody can be that attractive and this good at a videogame.
-Sheldon (about Penny)
You know, Penny, we make such a good team, maybe we could enter a couple of Halo tournaments sometime.
-Leonard
Or we could just have a life.
-Penny
Penny: (barges into apartment) Hey, guys! My friends and I got tired of dancing so we came over to have sex with you.
(The guys continue playing Halo)
Penny: Told ya.(Penny and her friends leave)
Sheldon: Why did you hit pause?
Leonard: I thought I heard something.
Raj: What?
Leonard: No, never mind.
If you don't like this Christy, why are you letting her stay?
-Leonard
Well, she was engaged to my cousin while she was sleeping with my brother, so she's kind of family.
-Penny
There's my Little Engine that Could.
-Christy
(Howard and Christy make out)
Well, there's one beloved children's book I'll never read again.
-Sheldon
Penny: Wait, Sheldon come back. You forgot something.
Sheldon: What?
Penny: This plasma grenade.(Explosion sound on the tv)
Penny: Ha. Look it's raining you.
Sheldon: You laugh now, but wait till you need tech support.
Leonard: I didn't like the look of the guy she was with.
Howard: Because he look better than you?
Leonard: Yeah. He was kind of dreamy
Sheldon: At least now you can retrieve the black box from the twisted smoldering wreckage that was once your fantasy of dating her and analyze the data so that you don't crash into geek mountain again.
So, how did it go with Leslie?
-Sheldon
We tried kissing but the earth didn't move. I mean any more than the 383 miles it was gonna move anyway.
-Leonard
I'm a perfectly nice guy! There's no reason we couldn't go to the restaurant and have a lovely dinner. Maybe we could go for a walk afterwards, talk about things we have in common: You love pottery? I love pottery! There's a pause-we both know what's happening-I lean in and we kiss; it's a little tentative at first, but then I realize she's kissing me back and she's biting my lower lip, you know? She wants me! This thing is going the distance, we're going to have sex! Oh, God, oh my GOD!
-Leonard
[Leonard descends into a panic attack]
Is the sex starting now?
-Sheldon
Love is not a sprint, it's a marathon. A relentless pursuit that only ends when she falls into your arms. Or hits you with the pepper spray...
-Howard
Howard: Sheldon, if you were a robot, and I knew and you didn't, would you want me to tell you? Sheldon: That depends. When I learn that I'm a robot, will I be able to handle it?
Howard: Maybe, although the history of science fiction is not on your side.
Sheldon: Uh, let me ask you this: when I learn that I'm a robot, will I be bound by Asimov's Three Laws of Robotics?
Raj: You might be bound by them right now.
Howard: That's true, have you ever harmed a human being, or through inaction, allowed a human being to come to harm?
Sheldon: Of course not.
Raj: Have you ever harmed yourself or let yourself to be harmed except in cases where a human being would've been endangered?
Sheldon: Well, no.
Howard: I smell robot.
(Leonard walks in)
Leonard: What's going on around here?
Sheldon: The internet's been down for half an hour.
Raj: Also, Sheldon might be a robot.
Tonight I spice my meat with goblin blood!
-Raj
There is no more Sheldon, I am the Sword Master!
-Sheldon
Howard: There are pitfalls, trust me, I know. When it comes to sexual harassment law I'm bit of a self taught expert.
Leonard: Look Howard if I were to ask Leslie Winkle out it would just be for dinner. I'm not gonna walk into the lab, ask her to strip naked and dance for me.
Howard: Oh, then you're probably OK.
(Leonard hits his head under the table at the restaurant)
Penny: Are you OK ?
Leonard: Yeah, I'm OK... Did you spill ketchup ?
Penny: No.
Leonard: I'm not OK!
Sheldon: So? How was your date?
Leonard: Awesome!
Sheldon: Score one for liquor and poor judgment.
There are many more, but as of now, I can't find any.
You have about as much chance of going out with Penny as the Hubble Telescope has of finding that at the center of each black hole there's a little man with a flashlight trying to find the circuit breaker.
-Sheldon
I just know that moving all day can be stressful and I just thought that good neighbors and some Indian food might be just what you need... plus, curry is a natural laxative and I don't need to tell you that a clean colon is one less thing to worry about.
-Leonard
Oh, well, this would be one of those circumstances that people unfamiliar with the law of large numbers would call a coincidence.
-Sheldon
[discussing Sheldon's work] At least I didn't have to invent 26 dimensions to get the math to work.
-Leonard
I didn't invent them. They're there.
-Sheldon
Yeah? In what universe?
-Leonard
In all of them, that's the point!
-Sheldon
Oh, Raj was just comparing Sheldon to a hygiene product used by women who are not feeling fresh on a summer's eve.
-Howard
And the bag it came in.
-Penny
This car weighs, let's say, 4,000 pounds. Now add 140 for me, 120 for you...
-Sheldon
120?!?
-Penny
Oh, I'm sorry. Did I insult you? Is your body mass somehow tied into your self worth?
-Sheldon
You know what's interesting about caves, Leonard?
-Sheldon
What?
-Leonard
Nothing.
-Sheldon
Now, you listen here. I have being telling you since you were four years old, it's okay to be smarter than everybody but you can't go around pointing it out.
-Mary
Why not?
-Sheldon
Because people don't like it. You don't remember all the ass kickings you got from the neighbor kids. Now lets get cracking. Shower, shirt, shoes and let's shove off.(Mary leaves the room)
-Mary
There wouldn't have been any ass kickings if that stupid death ray had worked.
-Sheldon
This is the best cobbler ever!
-Penny
You know what the secret ingredient is?
-Mrs. Cooper
Love?
-Penny
Lard.
-Mrs. Cooper
Leonard: We need to widen our circle.
Sheldon: I have a very wide circle. I have 212 friends on myspace.
Leonard: Yes, and you’ve never met one of them.
Sheldon: That’s the beauty of it.
Penny: I’m a Sagittarius, which probably tells you way more than you need to know.
Sheldon: Yes, it tells us that you participate in the mass cultural delusion that the sun’s apparent position relative to arbitrarily defined constellations at the time of your birth somehow affects your personality.
Penny: (puzzled) Participate in the what?
I’ve spent the past three-and-a-half years staring at greaseboards full of equations; before that, I spent four years working on my thesis; before that, I was in college; and before that, I was in the fifth grade.
-Sheldon
Sheldon: Leonard! Leonard!
Leonard: What, what’s the matter?
Sheldon: My equations! Someone’s tampered with my equations!
Leonard: Are you sure?
Sheldon: Of course I’m sure. Look at the beta function of quantum chromodynamics–the sign’s been changed!
Leonard: Yeah…but doesn’t that fix the problem you’ve been having?
Sheldon: Are you insane? Are you out of your mind? Are you–hey, look, that fixes the problem I’ve been having!
(Penny asking if she can spend the night on Sheldon and Leonard's couch)
Leonard: Are you suggesting that if we let Penny stay, we might succumb to cannibalism?Sheldon: No one ever thinks it’ll happen until it does.
Leonard: Penny, if you promise not to chew the flesh off our bones while we sleep, you can stay.
Penny: What?
Leonard: What are you doing?
Sheldon: Every Saturday since we’ve lived in this apartment, I have awakened at 6:15, poured myself a bowl of cereal, added a quarter-cup of 2% milk, sat on this end of this couch, turned on BBC America, and watched Doctor Who.
Leonard: Penny’s still sleeping.
Sheldon: Every Saturday since we’ve lived in this apartment…
Leonard: You have a TV in your room, why don’t you just have breakfast in bed?
Sheldon: Because I am neither an invalid nor a woman celebrating Mother’s Day.
(Leonard as to he and Penny's future)
Leonard: Our kids will be smart and beautiful.
Sheldon: Not to mention imaginary
(later)
Leonard: I'm a male, and she's a female.
Sheldon: But not of the same species.
How can she take your order when you're too neurotic to talk to her?
-Howard
That boy has been trouble since the day he fell out of me at K-Mart.
-Sheldon's mother
Leonard: A Homo habilis discovering his opposable thumbs says what ...
Kurt: What?
Leonard & Sheldon laugh
Now I fixed chicken. I hope that's not one of those animals you people think is magic.
-Sheldon's mother to Raj
Penny: Hey, if you guys need a fourth, I'll play.
Leonard: Great idea!
Sheldon: Uh, no. The wheel was a great idea. Relativity was a great idea. This is a notion, and a rather sucky one at that.
Penny: Why?!
Sheldon: Why? Oho, Penny, Penny, Penny.
Penny: Oho, what, what, what?
Sheldon: (as Penny picks up the controller) This is a complex battle simulation with a steep learning curve. There are a myriad of weapons, vehicles, and strategies to master, and not to mention an extremely intricate back story.
Penny: (explosion from the TV) Oh, cool! Whose head did I just blow off?
Sheldon: Mine.
I don't know how, but she is cheating! Nobody can be that attractive and this good at a videogame.
-Sheldon (about Penny)
You know, Penny, we make such a good team, maybe we could enter a couple of Halo tournaments sometime.
-Leonard
Or we could just have a life.
-Penny
Penny: (barges into apartment) Hey, guys! My friends and I got tired of dancing so we came over to have sex with you.
(The guys continue playing Halo)
Penny: Told ya.(Penny and her friends leave)
Sheldon: Why did you hit pause?
Leonard: I thought I heard something.
Raj: What?
Leonard: No, never mind.
If you don't like this Christy, why are you letting her stay?
-Leonard
Well, she was engaged to my cousin while she was sleeping with my brother, so she's kind of family.
-Penny
There's my Little Engine that Could.
-Christy
(Howard and Christy make out)
Well, there's one beloved children's book I'll never read again.
-Sheldon
Penny: Wait, Sheldon come back. You forgot something.
Sheldon: What?
Penny: This plasma grenade.(Explosion sound on the tv)
Penny: Ha. Look it's raining you.
Sheldon: You laugh now, but wait till you need tech support.
Leonard: I didn't like the look of the guy she was with.
Howard: Because he look better than you?
Leonard: Yeah. He was kind of dreamy
Sheldon: At least now you can retrieve the black box from the twisted smoldering wreckage that was once your fantasy of dating her and analyze the data so that you don't crash into geek mountain again.
So, how did it go with Leslie?
-Sheldon
We tried kissing but the earth didn't move. I mean any more than the 383 miles it was gonna move anyway.
-Leonard
I'm a perfectly nice guy! There's no reason we couldn't go to the restaurant and have a lovely dinner. Maybe we could go for a walk afterwards, talk about things we have in common: You love pottery? I love pottery! There's a pause-we both know what's happening-I lean in and we kiss; it's a little tentative at first, but then I realize she's kissing me back and she's biting my lower lip, you know? She wants me! This thing is going the distance, we're going to have sex! Oh, God, oh my GOD!
-Leonard
[Leonard descends into a panic attack]
Is the sex starting now?
-Sheldon
Love is not a sprint, it's a marathon. A relentless pursuit that only ends when she falls into your arms. Or hits you with the pepper spray...
-Howard
Howard: Sheldon, if you were a robot, and I knew and you didn't, would you want me to tell you? Sheldon: That depends. When I learn that I'm a robot, will I be able to handle it?
Howard: Maybe, although the history of science fiction is not on your side.
Sheldon: Uh, let me ask you this: when I learn that I'm a robot, will I be bound by Asimov's Three Laws of Robotics?
Raj: You might be bound by them right now.
Howard: That's true, have you ever harmed a human being, or through inaction, allowed a human being to come to harm?
Sheldon: Of course not.
Raj: Have you ever harmed yourself or let yourself to be harmed except in cases where a human being would've been endangered?
Sheldon: Well, no.
Howard: I smell robot.
(Leonard walks in)
Leonard: What's going on around here?
Sheldon: The internet's been down for half an hour.
Raj: Also, Sheldon might be a robot.
Tonight I spice my meat with goblin blood!
-Raj
There is no more Sheldon, I am the Sword Master!
-Sheldon
Howard: There are pitfalls, trust me, I know. When it comes to sexual harassment law I'm bit of a self taught expert.
Leonard: Look Howard if I were to ask Leslie Winkle out it would just be for dinner. I'm not gonna walk into the lab, ask her to strip naked and dance for me.
Howard: Oh, then you're probably OK.
(Leonard hits his head under the table at the restaurant)
Penny: Are you OK ?
Leonard: Yeah, I'm OK... Did you spill ketchup ?
Penny: No.
Leonard: I'm not OK!
Sheldon: So? How was your date?
Leonard: Awesome!
Sheldon: Score one for liquor and poor judgment.
There are many more, but as of now, I can't find any.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Oh Yeah
By the way, every time I tried to post something for the past few weeks, it kept saying "Error-35xll4bt" or something to that effect. But I'm back! Most of the stuff I was going to post was on literature, so I'm sure it will end up on here eventually!
Thoughts on Happiness
Yesterday, I asked a friend if he was happy. Without hesitation, he replied no. I didn't know what to say. I wasn't sure why. It made me think about whether or not I was truly happy. I've realized that I'm not. But I am something else. I'm joyful. There's a difference. Happiness is a moderate emotion-it has it's limits. Happiness can be attained, and lost. Happiness borders contentment, and I am not content.
But I am joyful. I have been joyful for a long time. I feel joy in life-in beauty, in family, in friendship-because life supplies this. I am not yet content, but I doubt I will be until I reach Heaven. Though a welcoming thought, I don't want to go just yet. There are still things in my life with which I am not satisfied. But would it really be life if I was content? I doubt it.
Why am I joyful? I'm not entirely sure, but I wouldn't trade it for happiness-ever!
But I am joyful. I have been joyful for a long time. I feel joy in life-in beauty, in family, in friendship-because life supplies this. I am not yet content, but I doubt I will be until I reach Heaven. Though a welcoming thought, I don't want to go just yet. There are still things in my life with which I am not satisfied. But would it really be life if I was content? I doubt it.
Why am I joyful? I'm not entirely sure, but I wouldn't trade it for happiness-ever!
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